Doing Too Much

I'm doing too much work on the songs because it's so hot that it's impossible to do anything else. One good thing is realising that in some cases what I hear in my head is not possible. That Hofner bass guitar sound with reverb? You actually need a Hofner bass guitar for that, and I haven't got one any more.

But two songs that I thought sounded awful now sound great. And the clever little chord sequence that I inserted into a simple song sounds terrible. And one song that I spent ages putting a bass line on sounds better without it.

One day, I might think it's stupid to go backwards songwriting-wise, while everyone else is going forwards into the land of sunshine pop. But there's a driving force behind these songs that is making me feel really strong when perhaps life issues could be making me feel weak.

The most ironic thing is having spent almost a lifetime bringing the stories of punk women into visibility in ways that mean that they couldn't be swept under the carpet ever again, there is currently a large powerful broom sweeping me under the carpet. Me and my big ideas!