Wednesday, December 31, 2025
Tuesday, December 30, 2025
Flaneuse-ing
Monday, December 29, 2025
Thingamajigs
Wednesday, December 24, 2025
Tuesday, December 23, 2025
Why Are We Waiting?
Watching an item on TV about spontaneous choirs on trains triggered a memory of waiting on the quayside in North Shields for a ferry to Scandinavia- probably Esbjerg, when there used to be a ferry service between Newcastle and Denmark.
I must have been about six, and we were on our way to Norway for a holiday. McDad and Bruv both had red hair, so the idea was that we went somewhere where their skin would not burn.
Embarkment must have been delayed, because the whole crowd of passengers waiting to get on to the ferry erupted into a version of 'Why Are We Waiting' and kept singing it until we were allowed to board.
I was astonished. I had never heard so many people singing at once before, not even in church. It was all done in good spirits, I'd say in quite a Geordie way if there is such a thing: good-natured exasperation. I'm not sure if it was that that got us on to the ship, but we did eventually manage to board and we had a lovely holiday in Oslo and Bergen!
Monday, December 22, 2025
Turner and Constable at Tate Britain
I understand that I should upload pictures to make more people read this, but none of the photos that I took do justice to the paintings, so here are some inadequate words instead!
I love Turner's work. One of the blurbs next to a painting said that he painted the pollution that was visible all the time in London, which is why his paintings are so hazy and swirly. I have often thought you can almost feel the atmosphere in his work; he makes weather conditions into dramatic feelings rather than Constable's rather poncy little puffy clouds. I'd never seen Turner's religious paintings before. There was a bit too much melodrama in them, and he was a bit silly: he painted lots of imaginary Italian scenes before actually going there. Or maybe that's poignant; possibly he couldn't afford to travel!
What was lovely was the little sketch books that both of them painted in. That's where their respective skills were really evident. Overlapping two pages sometimes, the passion for capturing reality was vibrant and infectious. I wanted to get a little sketchbook and paint in it there and then.
Like many exhibitions at both London Tates, there was too much here. A bit of focus and editing would have made the exhibition altogether better. There were some gorgeous Constables here, and some intriguing juxtapositions (a painting of a canal with a horse, then another, larger one done several years later of the same place with the same horse, only now populated with men working alongside the water). Both artists are excellent at painting water, Constable still pools and millponds, Turner brilliant at crashing, terrifying seas. But one became tired of Constable's works very quickly: the paintings looked almost paint-by-numbers and they quite possibly were, rushing through commissions. Some of Turner's paintings were not his best, and one of the religious ones had the most silly twee little white rabbit that I've ever seen in a so-called serious painting.
But I'm quite definitely a Turnerite. It's the industrial ones that I like, all that drama. He's almost like a precursor of the Futurists with his dynamism and ability to turn ugly industrial seascapes into parodies of religious epiphanies. Very clever. I'm going to go back again and soak up some magic from the large canvases that both of them had the luxury of creating. I might like Constable better too, second time around, and see beyond what seems to be superficial sentimentality. He was definitely a record-keeper and he sure could paint a cornfield!
It seems churlish to criticise two such wonderful painters, but it's more that I'm processing what I felt. Now it's time for me to do some drawing.
Sunday, December 21, 2025
Friday, December 19, 2025
Thursday, December 18, 2025
Tuesday, December 16, 2025
Stereolab at Electric, Brixton
I'm up far too early, so what better thing to do than to reflect on Stereolab's Brixton gig on Sunday?
Their tracks (and also Laetitia's solo music) have been really standing out this year when I'd been listening to Riley and Coe's BBC6 show in the evenings, and when this date was added after the Royal Festival Hall sold out, it seemed like serendipity to buy a Christmas ticket or two.
We'd been spending most of the day listening to their music, yet I'm not enough of a fanwoman to be able to say 'this track, that track'. All I can do is think about the music which was of course, mesmerising. The songs have been arranged with flair and fun, with analogue beeps peeking out from guitar thrashes, exquisitely rehearsed stops and starts, thrilling key changes, and the commanding presence of Laetitia Sadier swapping instruments as though she was merely changing thoughts in her head. A bass trombone stood on a stand, and you could have knocked me down with a feather when it was she who actually lifted it to her lips and played the trombone lines. I watched the other musicians to see who was enjoying which songs (that's a musician's hobby). At one point, the guitarist was having such a lovely time he nearly wrenched his head off his neck, nodding, nodding. And how brilliant to have real drums in music that is sometimes so motorik! The set was a mixture of short, sharp songs with catchy choruses and longer pieces with rock-outs. I liked the short ones best: concentrated, focused thoughts in neat packages, but there was something here for everyone; different sections of the audience were cheering for different songs, which is hardly surprising given they are such a prolific band.
At times, I was almost driven to tears. Look what musicians do: they rehearse, they make songs, they process the human condition, they bring people together. They are not killing people with their machinery. They make mistakes, both technical and in thought. They are not perfect. But they reflect humanity and are born to do so, whether or not music is innate to their DNA. All that assembly of sound, words, nuance, and the layering of a human voice on top of it all, or integrated into a conversation with it all. It never ceases to fill me with awe and sometimes fills me with so much emotion that it spills beyond my body into something that can only be described as beyond human. What could be better than that?
Monday, December 15, 2025
Sunday, December 14, 2025
Wednesday, December 10, 2025
Tuesday, December 09, 2025
Monday, December 08, 2025
Sunday, December 07, 2025
It's Toadstool Time
Big luv to Wormhole World for including my weird track on their Christmas Compilation!
https://wormholeworld.bandcamp.com/track/its-toadstool-time
Tuesday, December 02, 2025
Monday, December 01, 2025
Wednesday, November 26, 2025
Playing an Open Mic on Friday, High Street Kensington: cancelled
Sorry for short notice- I have had to cancel this gig!
Tuesday, November 25, 2025
Mental Recalibration
Friday, November 21, 2025
Podcast About The Chefs, Radio 3 Madrid
Thank you to Diego for sending this link, via Ian Ballard at Damaged Goods:
https://www.rtve.es/play/audios/el-sotano/discos-historia-chefs-20-11-25/16824690/
Photo by Claire Barratt
Wednesday, November 19, 2025
Tuesday, November 18, 2025
Last Life Drawing Class
It was a therapeutic thing to take part in each week, and last night we had the opportunity to draw the model for a long pose of almost two hours. I drew big- which meant a lot of re-drawing to work on the proportions. I didn't finish the drawing, but I don't think anyone did. The model was the best one ever- they managed to stay completely still, and most importantly, not sag under the physical pressure of keeping themselves in one position for such a long time. There were a few short breaks, but by some miracle they managed to get straight back into the same pose with very little change.
Monday, November 17, 2025
Singing Louder and Listening
Over the past week it feels as though my feet have scarcely touched the ground. It has been a long time since I forgot to eat, or indeed didn't have time. This has been such an occasion.
One Tuesday, there was a rehearsal for Gina's choir in the basement of Third Man Records. Hats off to everyone, they had put the work in learning the parts. They are all excellent singers and there was no time wasted: we spent around two and a half hours running through both of the songs and working out the minimum of backing track that could be used to anchor the vocals. By the end of the rehearsal, we were singing as one, which is exactly what a choir should do: listening to the vocal blend at the same time as creating it. It was all the more of an achievement because without exception the members of the choir have their own solo projects as writers and performers, and kept their egos in their pockets to make the whole thing work.
On Wednesday we met at the Union Chapel, where the house sound engineer had prepared microphones for each of us, and he sorted the backing tracks so they sounded good over the PA. I had to leave for a while because Devendra Banhart uses incense and I found that like bonfire smoke, my lungs cannot cope with it. I went and stood out the back with the catering staff who were phoning their families- and eventually, lighting up their fags, so I went back in again.
It was a house full to bursting, and the audience responded really well to Gina's music. She is an accomplished front-woman full of wit and charm, and soon they were eating out of her hand. We stood in order behind the big velvet curtain and slipped into place on the stage after being introduced. It went past in a whirl. I could hear it all working (phew!), and we marched off singing 'Keep to the left..'
What an amazing thing to do, and also what a responsibility. It's been a long time since I arranged vocals for live; it's all been for recording recently, and for live I'd made some call-and-response sections to make the dynamic more interesting. I thought they worked!
Afterwards, Devendra took a photograph of us all on the stairs. He is a witty chap. Earlier, I'd been out to look for somewhere to relieve myself. 'Is this the toilet?', I asked a person standing in the doorway to his dressing room. 'Sometimes people call me that', he replied.
On Thursday morning, I went to my new freelance job writing songs with people with complex disabilities. It was a good session, and I left them with some homework for the next song, which will be a protest song.
Then it was time to head off to the BBC studios at Maida Vale to a live BBC3 recording of the BBC Orchestra. This was a wonderful thing to do, to listen after so much doing. It was also a watching experience because the orchestra interact with each other and with the conductor constantly. There was a piece by Tchaikowsky where the violins started to the left of the stage, and the arrangement moved through the violas (left of centre) to the cellos (right of centre), and ended up with the massed basses on the right. It was brilliant. Panning sounds on a small laptop all the time is so insular, to see this happening in real life was incredible both visually and sonically. How wonderful to be an orchestral composer and see this dynamic in action after imagining it in your head! Here it is (at least for a while. Can you hear us clapping?): https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/m002lq0l
Friday was a breathing day, although I did prepare and time the mini-sets for the Louder than Words Festival, where I had been asked to play three 15 minute sets before the interviews with Justin Currie (The Tremeloes), Richard Jobson (The Skids) and Eddie Tudor Pole (Tenpole Tudor)
On Saturday I got the train to Manchester. Delays on the network meant that I completely missed Debsey Wykes of the Dollymixture, who was apparently brilliant, and Claire Grogan of Altered Images, who was also apparently brilliant. I did hear her singing through the doors of the Green Room and her lovely voice has not changed a bit.
Cazz Blase and Shelina Brown were there and we had some great conversations about it all, and about how some men are so threatened by intelligent women. Thankfully, not all of them are, but the ones who are have disproportionately loud voices. There are a lot of exceptions, mercifully: for instance I talked to Dave Barbarossa backstage, who is wonderfully funny and tactful.
I also have to thank the sound engineer Ash for getting a really great sound. He was calm and collected, and there was a room change (Baz from The Stranglers instead of Eddie) which was made all the easier for the fact that he's already done the other two sets I'd played.
What about the punk panel? Well, it was very lively. Chris Sullivan and Stephen Colegrave have published a book called Punk, the Last Word which they say is a tongue-in-cheek title because there is no last word. It was such a big panel that we almost fell off the podium: Russ Bestley, who designed the Pauline Murray biography, Carol Hodge, who performs Crass songs all around the world with Steve Ignorant, Chris, Marco Pirroni, Ryan Walker (journalist from Louder than War), me, Stephen and Mike Dines from the Punk Scholars Network sat in a semicircle with John Robb convening us all. Or reining us in, where necessary. The discussion became heated at some points but John managed to keep things polite and as unmansplainy as possible with so many strong male viewpoints. I think Carol and me held our own, and there was a very interesting point at the end where there was a debate about the origin of the word 'punk', and the familiar conclusion that it came from the nickname of young men in prison about 100 years ago who sexually serviced the other male prisoners. From the back of the audience, Cazz pointed out that her own first discovery of the word was in fact in Shakespeare, where the word was used to describe a female prostitute. Game, set and match to Cazz for that!
My own issue came with The Pink Fairies and Hawkwind being held up as examples of early 1970s countercultural music. To me, they were in the same male boat as Led Zeppelin (squeeze my lemon), and that led to a very interesting after-panel discussion with the woman who had proposed the idea. In the end, I said 'You should write about this!' (I didn't say 'This is why I wrote the song 'Thrush'!).
The next day, I played an early set before Richard Jobson's talk, and then went to a talk on a history of graphic design and DIY printing in the punk and post-punk era. It does sound like a very interesting book, but unfortunately the author couldn't resist the urge to be controversial at my expense. After the talk, in the questions part, he mentioned that he didn't like Cold War Steve. I actually love him- that constant snarling and biting, even on days when the quality of collage is not brilliant. It's the biteback that I find really heartening. I brought up how I felt. 'Hermann Goering would agree with you', said the speaker. What a silly swipe! I have seen this guy do something this before, so I let it rest. I could have asked him to wash his mind out with soap and water, but I didn't. Funnily enough, I mentioned it to Offsprog One this morning. 'Is he a graphic designer?', she asked. Ha ha!
So, on the the final short set where I had to develop a pair of cojones to get past the rows of folded arms, but I think it was OK. They clapped! Then I hared over to Eddie Tenpole to hear his interview, and it was absolutely hilarious. Years ago, he came to audition for one of the mad Music Halls that I did with Lester Square but kind of disappeared after that. On Sunday afternoon he was energetic, terrifying, honest, animated and exhausting. Life has chewed him up, but he has chewed it up back. Can you imagine being asked by Malcolm McLaren to go to Paris and have sex with underage girls while singing? Eddie was still clearly disturbed by this, and of course he said no. His talk was packed with people, presumably because of his hosting of The Crystal Maze. He did wonderful impressions of Edward Fox- and of himself being auditioned. He was like a box of fireworks; at the beginning it had seemed that he'd made the decision to just give yes/no answers, but this was clearly impossible for a man with so much explosive energy. It was a great way to end the festival, even though there was so much I missed.
I had a great chat with Jill Adam, who organised the whole thing so beautifully, and headed home to think about it all. There has been so much food for thought this seven days: every day a different flavour.
Friday, November 14, 2025
Louder than Words
Thursday, November 13, 2025
Backstage at the Union Chapel
This photo is from last night. Gina supported Devendra Banhart at the Union Chapel in London, and a choir of friends and associates sang on two of her songs, Live Forever and Keep to the Left.
I did the vocal arrangements, and after one rehearsal at Third Man in the basement (due to touring and other time restraints), we donned our black garb and joined her on stage.
Thank you choir for making those arrangements sound so good! Thanks also to Gina for inviting me to do it. It's a very different kettle of fish to the job of arranging backing vocals for recordings, which I do for myself, Gina, Robert and various other people.
This is a rushed posting; I'm up early for work but might write more in due course.
Tuesday, November 11, 2025
McCookerybook Chili Recipe
New Zine Alert!
From Jane Duffus, writer of 'These Things Happen: the Sarah Records story'
'Zine Things Happen' includes my recipe for Black Bean Chili.
(substitute vegan sour cream if required)
What a neat publication it is- I love it, and am honoured to have been invited to share my just-about-only recipe!
Sunday, November 09, 2025
Coming Up In Jolly January!
Friday, November 07, 2025
Last Night at the Prince Albert
Rachel Love playing her set- they are such a well-rehearsed band. It's incredibly moving to hear Rachel's song lyrics, all the more so because of the beautifully-arranged music behind them. Good luck in Glasgow!
Below, The Last of the Lovely Days sound checking. They play powerful-sounding pop songs with a lot of punky energy.
Photo by Steve Clements. Thanks to all to came- lovely to see Steve, Jon Chrisp (The Chefs London Manager) and his family, Mark Erickson from Asbo Derek (we Gaelicked at each other, briefly), Charlie Harper from UK Subs and Yuko, Jerry and Alice, and Rachel's lovely sons and their partners. As always, the sound was immaculate. Thanks to everyone who sang along to The Sea. Haven't played that one for a while!
Thursday, November 06, 2025
Wednesday, November 05, 2025
Arranging
After a rehearsal of tomorrow's songs (got to keep those guitar-players callouses going!), I went round to Gina's to finalise the parts for the choir arrangement that's going to happen on two of her songs when she supports Devendra Banhart at the Union Chapel next Wednesday. One one of them, we added her existing vocal parts to the ones I've been working on, and the other I think is complete anyway. She's going to send the parts out to everyone today so they have time to learn them.
It's going to sound absolutely great. I am delighted that Ruth and Karina are going to be part of it; Miki Beryeni, Rozi Plain, Estella Adeyeri, Jenny Green, and more will also be there.
I had admin to do today- some PRS registrations. The Gaelic electronica songs are going to be released tomorrow. I also had to cut out the printed download codes and clip them to the lyric books for tomorrow.
Tomorrow at the Prince Albert in Brighton supporting Rachel Love & The Last of the Lovely Days It will be a night of warmth and colour!
Tickets: https://wegottickets.com/event/673409
I'll play some songs from 'Showtunes from the Shadows' and from this now sold-out album. The lyrics/chord/colouring book book I made to go with it + download codes will be only £5 (cash) on the night!Tuesday, November 04, 2025
Pencil
I came all the way back from life drawing last night with an Indigo coloured pencil crayon sticking up out of my hair. I'd been keeping the colours there for when I needed them. I didn't realise till I saw my shadow on the fence when I walked up from the tube station. Nobody on the train appeared to have noticed.
Monday, November 03, 2025
Monday...
Thursday, October 30, 2025
Playing with Rachel Love/The Last of the Lovely Days in Brighton
A week today in Brighton!
I'm going to play mostly tracks from my 2017 album 'The Sea', and I'll have the lyrics book (a colouring book with the chords and lyrics) with download codes for the songs- just for a change!
Great bands!
https://wegottickets.com/event/673409
Music, Music, Music
Willie G and me are just putting the finishing touches to our collaboration- I believe the lathe cut version of our release is going to turn up today, and the cover is almost complete. It was a real challenge to not only earn the Gaelic, but also to sing in a more gentle, lyrical way. Cailin Morin Sa has very few recorded versions but Ailein Duinn has lots; the general feel of the vocals in those versions is of keening, and I wanted to make a vocal performance that was more gentle and yearning. I hope it's been successful.
Meanwhile, I've been working on a song about Toadstools. We were out looking for Fly Agarics, the spotty ones, and couldn't find any. They are often late, waiting for rain, but we think that the trustees of the common have mown the grass so radically that they've stopped the toadstools from growing.
I remembered doing a track for a friend of Joby's back in the day at Rick Parfitt's studio in Camden, paid for with an accordion that I bought in a charity shop. Curiosity took me to an old computer, and sure enough I found it. I've been putting vocals on it and experimenting with storytelling. It's nearly finished: the experimentation part was a failure and I have to tame the sound before I send it off.
And today? A song writing workshop with people with complex physical disabilities, the second one I've done.
I have a part-song ready to go and I hope it works!
Wednesday, October 29, 2025
Tuesday, October 28, 2025
Sunday, October 26, 2025
Arty Musicky Day
I spent part of the day recording the choral arrangement for Live Forever for Gina's November support concert with Devendra Banhart at the Union Chapel. It's quite close to the recorded arrangement, but with added call-and-response, which I think will look good.
When my voice wore out (I'm singing 8 parts), I did a little bit more of the cover for Willie G's Synthecosse project. I'm not sure which song is going to be the A-side so I can't quite finish it. It was visually unbalanced so I'm working on balancing it up a bit; I flipped it, and it leans to the right. More heft to the left, dear.
Excellent opportunity to laze about and watch Hamza's Hidden Wild Isles on BBC1, and eat pistachio nuts and mince pies. Tomorrow, life drawing (if I get there). Will I be brave enough to do colour like two weeks ago? It depends on the length of the pose. Last week's longest pose was 25 minutes and shortest was 30 seconds; there were many changes in a two and a half hour session and I felt sorry for the model. It may be that I need to go to a class at another place to draw at a slower pace, but that's OK. Monday evenings are intense and therapeutic- and surprisingly physical. Standing up for such a long time, stretching and looking at a huge sheet of paper is not normal behaviour. It's wonderful to be able to work big. My drawings of working people are A4 sized and each one is done in an hour, listening to Riley and Coe's BBC6 show. I've got larger paper at home I could work on and eventually I'll get round to that too, merging the scale of the life drawings with the subject matter of the photo-based ones. A plan!
Saturday, October 25, 2025
Tuesday, October 21, 2025
The Lump on the Sofa
Friday, October 17, 2025
Thursday, October 16, 2025
A DIY Political Song In An Hour
Yesterday evening, I ran a song writing workshop for the Antiuniversity at the House of Annetta in East London.
Doing something like this is better if you don't walk in with a ready-made song for people to copy: it's one of those situations where you start the process and only intervene when things get 'stuck'.
It's amazing how far we got: a chorus, three verses and even harmonies. Too much, perhaps: I lost the plot halfway through and insisted that the harmonies went over a chord in the wrong place. Sorry to the participant who called that out!
It was a rousing song in the end, that captured the concerns of everyone who participated, I think. We worked very quickly and everyone put a lot of energy into it so the ideas came thick and fast. At the end it became a song that belonged to all of us, that can be taken away and changed and adapted by anyone who was there and used for their own purpose.
Inadvertent star of the evening was Cat. Cat decided to walk across the table, right across the centre of what the humans were doing. The table consisted of four narrow trestle tables in a square formation with a gap in the middle that was covered by a large white paper tablecloth; of course, when Cat got to that part of the table, it disappeared down the hole in a completely undignified fashion along with a pen or two and all of its self-assurance. Poor Cat.
I almost cancelled the workshop because the remnants of the virus are still punching my body and stuffing my brain, but actually I'm very glad that it went ahead. We wrote a catchy song from absolutely nothing in just an hour, and now everyone who came along knows how to do it themselves.
That's the way to do it!
Tuesday, October 14, 2025
Monday, October 13, 2025
The (Distorting) Mirror
With nothing better to do than become immersed in the entire Saturday newspaper, virus-calibrated cogs of my brain worked like a slide rule to juxtapose articles I'd been reading into strange configurations.
An article on copyright and artificial intelligence, calling out big tech for stealing absolutely everything from absolutely everyone to 'train' AI, merged with one by a TV writer bemoaning the fact that her now-grown children had left home, and there was now nobody there to 'inspire' her scripts. Nobody there to steal from, she meant.
It's not an enormous conceptual leap to land squarely in the lap of songwriters, plundering our private lives for our lyrics. Our ex-partners anxiously scan the words of our songs to see if they are there (often they are not: who wants to give them additional publicity?). Sometimes our songs explain things to us that we didn't know: we think we are writing about one thing, and year later we realise we'd been articulating something else entirely.
Our 'secret' method of communicating in lyrics and music still involves the plundering of episodes that half-belong to other people. One side of a story becomes a story; one person holds up a mirror to the other, but it's a mirror that they made themselves. A bit like A1 reflecting the interests of the tech bros, or rather, the self interests. An avenue of fairground crazy mirrors, it twists the way we'd like to see ourselves into something hideous, which perhaps we are.
Oh, now it has become too complicated. I'm going back to sleep.
Saturday, October 11, 2025
An Apostrophelipse!
And do you think all those badly-spelled, badly-punctuated 'working class right wing' tweets and postings are created deliberately to make people scornfully share the message, and therefore gain more clicks?


























